Under Revision

More time has passed seeming so long that I took the time to share a thought here. With life there has been many challenges, financially and otherwise. Just as anything it is ongoing.

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12:23 3/4/2008

I awoke this morning, after a nice nights rest and things seeemed to become all that much clearer. Creative Clarification, the reality of now and the future to be. To realise to speak clear and concise, to practice listening and not talking. I seemed to hear more and understand more. So it became an experience of a sort to improve upon thoughts. To truly see how exciting the future is to be. Focus Forward Revisited and revised. It shall be seen where it goes.

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Things have come about in so much time. To only realize now that the thoughts are more clear then they have been before. Perhaps the time has arrived to truly take this variation of a verse to the next level. So much information, great writing and constant growth the actions of the day. I should ride, I should travel, I should go and see something else as today is the perfect day and now is the perfect moment.

General

lately this has become pretty basic, been not sure what to write after fluffy gs death and the fact I am working on so many other things at this time, keeping things alive becomes a constant. I grow in time, and learn moment by moment because that is just how it needs to be. I often think about such facts, I wonder what I could do and what I should do and take the steps one by one.

Tuesday 11-06 0336 11/07

Each day brings something new, today was no exception. Electrical failure of a breaker disabled part of the house for quite a long time. Finally after jerry rigging things to work the maintenance finally showed up and though ti could of been done with two there was three of them. How many maintenance people does it really take to change a breaker? Three individuals, though it did seem it would of been easier with just two but three really now I figured that was just a bit of an overkill so wtf? Hell I could of done it myself in less time and less wasted effort then was displayed with these three. What should of only taken maybe 10 minutes ended up being a pointless skit of 30 minutes just screwing around with the thing. Who knows and why does it matter, it doest so it works great back to the party yeaha.

Another annoyance of this fine day, I finally got my check and deposited it only to find out, not by choice, that apparently it was overdrawn by **.** dollars, a negative balance because of bullshit fee. Free checking, huh what a load of crap. When I thought about it what I should have done is cashed it and put a partial paying on the fees but instead for some unknown reason I deposited it and in so doing the bullshit was automatically subtracted from the deposit leaving with me with not enough to cover the advance of ***.** that when paid back equated to ***.** for the privilege of an advance what the hell and to make it all that much more enjoyable I also owe to paypal ***.** for the money I sent my girl to the tune of ****.** Php for a trip to Baguio. I am glad she enjoyed it, and bought me a few things also. I appreciated it but it messed me up pretty good as far as the budget goes and the time it took to clear. Conveniently, just in time for my account to be overdrawn so there goes another **.** of money I worked for the bank gets because they decided to time it to insure it would not clear, fucking bastards. When I think about it could of just talked with a good friend of mine and she could of removed the fees and got me back my money that I earned. All well, net time or just cash it make it simple. Still may be a possibility to solve that just need to figure a reason and make sure she takes care of me and no one else. Its a good idead just need to figure a reason.

The next question is how am I going to cover the other outstanding transactions paypal ***.** ,***.**,& **.** from ****. Need to solve that as well as the ***.** for the advance america in all over ***.** that needs to come from somewhere. The objective to save up to ****.** for my trip there by February 2009 or early March 2009, Considering I do not have work right now although it is likely that I can go back to the restaurant, the question still is Do I want to return to that workplace? What could supplement that income? The primary focus for now is how to take care of paypal and advance america paid within the next month or preferably sooner.

There are more then a few solutions, just need to figure which and how. The goal remains the same to establish three incomes between now and next year, and how that relates the need for income to pay bills. At which point I will be just a tad bit more relaxed once they are taken care of.

Once they are out of the way I can then focus on the necessary budget and be able to stick to it. I find it odd that according to my register there should be a positive balance not considering the check for advance america in the said amount and not considering the ***.** that supposedly will be retried in three days and any other outstanding transfers.

The solution pretty clear, make sure you have a safety net of sorts, a contingency plan on unexpected circumstances, by keeping three times what you spend still within the account and discipline yourself not to spend it, it will take work but it can work well enough.

Long perhaps but interesting. Enjoy the read.

Domain Fund Donation Station

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Domain Donation Station

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Been sometime since I have entered much here, been busy with life and living and the last couple of months have been uneventful, so much death, and loss almost reached a point of wondering what now. I also realised how many have found this blog and the many others I work on regular basis, continually come back to read what I offer to the world at large and it is appreciated. As far as it goes I even stepped up to a domain and have found an interest there also. I appreciate each of these you visit on a regular basis but have come to a point whereby to keep things alive it is necessary to put together some donations to keep them alive. So ask you in this time in life to help keep what you have found alive.

The stories of the pets in this family continues:

Family Pets
Take a look and let me know what you think.

The Continuing Story Can Be Found Below:
Most Recent Addition
Forward Focus
To Ride a Bike
The Tales Told
The Rest of the Story

Look forward to comments and feedback.

Fluffy G Continued

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Over this weekend the plan is to bury that kitty that lost its life far to early in its existence.

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To Be Continued ...

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Well since that infamous thanksgiving where we lost such a small being from our life though only two days later was replaced with a new kitten pictures will be posted soon. This one is a tortoise shell kitty, a mere few weeks old with great mannerism and quite bright. A quick study is a better way to say it.

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Mona the Brave

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A tortoise shell kitty, younger then fluffy with much better manner, and far more bold.

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Her story follows

It is fortunate she came into our life as it was difficult for my mother to get over the event of fluffy's death on a day expected to be a day of thankfulness and coming together of families. How things do change, it is part and partial to life but it makes it nonetheless difficult to deal with a loss of human or animal. Seasons change and stories change, life and living and in existence, we must grow through it however difficult.

Thanks for reading

Ray

Curve Balls of Life

Tonight was a night never in sight as curves were thrown and the bat was swung, to many location they did fly each going its own way.

How I react is up to me from what I see and thank thee for the challenge I face in an ever moving race from place to place along this journey, my journey to success ever the curve thrown my way the crack of the bat all the way I must go to say I knew I could and now its done and help others to do the same in their journey to fame of a humble sort, of an earned freedom to say you to can go all the way.

Just take the steps & do the work, go above and beyond where you have ever been to get those curves beyond the gate and take the challenge to turn about to be the victor without a doubt and fight the fight or go without. Be the winner to never again be out.

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The Sad Truth:

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You know it has been said Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful for something ... and

this thanksgiving as it has come and gone brought about things you wonder if you can be thankful for. In example a kitty relatively new to the family ... his first holiday season as our pet never expecting it to be his last, passes unexpectedly while we are away visiting family two hours from our home where all the pets were with my sister. On this day so termed as Thanksgiving, thankful for death??

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Fluffy G
A wonderful pet may he Rest In Peace

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Died 11/23/2007 Buried 12/02/07

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We usually go to San Francisco for the holidays as most of my relatives still live there and seeing as we have one dog and two cats including one kitten we always have someone stay at home with the animals, this particular time it was my sister.
We headed out in preparation for the long ride a total of 2 hours on great traffic conditions full expecting to be in SF till later in the night. So once we arrived surprisingly early we sat down after saying the traditional hellos, begin feasting. All seemed to be going well until my cell phone rang, surprised as I was I did not expect the content of the conversation. my sister called me up just as we were finishing the gluttonous feasting that is thanksgiving ... and going for my third piece of pumpkin pie. She calls and all she says is there is an emergency the kitten is dead ... it got stuck in the gate and well she had tried to save him but in the end it seems his neck got broken or he just choked to death. Last I heard he was bleeding out his nose and ears.

Murdered, choked to death ... nobody knows ... well so it went down ... the wonder of the cell ... enabling the opportunity to communicate ... so a time to be thankful now a sad time to be remembered. It got me thinking though of this world, these holidays ... a time to be with family but is it also a time to lose a family member? Or we just lucky that way. Well the ride back as it were was sad ... so much crying and the standard blame on this and blame on that. You know the shoulda, coulda, woulda. If only ... If I was there I ... and so on and so forth ... but I looked at it and said to myself and attempted to share the thought with those who were most affected, my mother in particular ... I tried to tell her it is best to accept it ... and move on ... funny thing the song from The Eagles, Get Over It!. Did come to mind but figured that was just a bit to harsh. So after a time ... I had said all I could and had done all that I was able ... we get back home and all that remains of this once active kitten Black & White tuxedo kitten, which had just begun his life and started learning how to relate with us, a stray, one in which could of become a farrow cat and may of died in more harsh a way. We saved him from that life or did we. I truly wonder sometimes what did we do for this kitten?

Thanks for reading.

This story seems that it must go on ... and so it shall ... Look here for the continuation